WithALittleHelp

 I’m sitting by the beach. Feet in the sand looking out at the waves. Thinking how much grief is like the waves. I miss the better part of me. It’s been over 8 years and why does it still hurt so bad? We were a team. We did everything together. Whether it was working around the house, working on the cars or just having fun with the kids. Now everything is changing. And change is so difficult.  Sitting by the ocean and just listening to the water is definitely refreshing. It brings such a calm to your soul. I find it very healthy writing my feelings here. As I’m writing I could feel myself feeling so much better and lighter. Ok Bruce Springsteen and Janice Joplin on the radio helps as well💜 I also walked 2.5 miles down the shoreline. But now I have to walk back. What was I thinking.  Life. It throws you a lot of curve balls. Some you could hit right out of the park and some just singles. Some you just struggle with. But we are strong and will get through it.  Remembe...

 Hi folks, The past couple of days have been lonely. I am missing Mike a lot. It could just be because of these gloomy days. But to be loved by someone so wonderful has its pros and cons. I have all these great memories of him and I miss him so badly. I miss our amazing road trips that we took every year with the kids. I think my kids growing up an having there own life isn’t easy as well. It is what you want for them but it is so hard. I miss doing the lawn with my partner. We had a lot of good times and we also had some not so good times as well. We were a couple. Lol. But life goes on one moment at a time. They say grief is like the waves and I’m riding those waves the best way I can. I can’t wait for it to be nice out. Sunshiny days where I could go to the beach as often as I can. I do enjoy being at the beach. This blog is a safe space for me. Where I could write my thoughts with no judgements. To be clear I am fine. This is just how I feel right now. Like I said sometimes you...

 Today is a bit heavy. But it’s all good. It’s ok to feel a bit down. It’s ok to go into the valley. The key is not to live there. Let’s face it. We are human and of course sometimes the feelings are just overwhelming. We just need to finds ways to deal with things. And please bear with me. I just simply write what’s flowing through my head at the time. Sometimes it feels like brain is on steroids. Lol. But today I’m feeling a bit heavy because the sun is shining with blue skies and I’m thinking of Mike and we will just be like let’s go for a drive. So I took a drive to Sandy Hook. Music blasting. Singing to the top of my voice. Enjoying the scenery. Sometimes this is all you need. You would think it’s been over 8 years and maybe I wouldn’t still miss him so. But remember grief has no timeline. Take the time for yourself. Go with friends or be ok being with just being with  you. It’s all good. Remember I started this blog so we could share whatever is going on with us at the t...

 Hi, I am a 54 year old single mom. I am starting this blog as a safe space where anyone can share anything. Good stuff or just if you are having a bad day. This is going to be a place with no judgement. A place just for caring and support.